So this is my situation, this girl I’ve been seeing recently told me she wanted to end things, firstly let me set up the background.

So last year I started university, and I met this girl very early on, on a night out, we hooked up and sparked a relationship pretty quickly. I didn’t particularly want to be with her for a while, but I stuck about as she seemed nice and I got regular sex. I must admit she was my first but i never let I know that. So we continued for a while, I decided to make it official as I started to catch feelings. What I found weird was, despite me liking her, I never really wanted to be with her in public settings or found her all that attractive. I still didn’t cheat though, as I had morals. I thought I loved her, but now I’m not so sure.

So recently we’ve had summer vacations, she lives in an entirely different country in a different continent, so seeing her wasn’t really an option. We’d planned to reconnect after the holiday if possible. We didn’t really speak much throughout, but that was mainly due to her almost sort of ignoring me. So I recently messaged her to get some clarity on where we stood, I was basically crushing over her, she however told me she didn’t think we could carry on, this was because she, according to her, hadn’t missed me or thought about us throughout. I’m currently on holiday right now, but we’re gonna meet and talk more in person.

I’ve been sort of down since then, and I’m not exactly how to proceed, and why I’m so downtrodden. Like I said, I didn’t really find her overly attractive throughout, but I still liked being with her, one on one at least. Was I in love or did I just enjoy the company she provided? And how should I move forward?