Idk where to be in my head when it comes to my mom, sometimes I’ll think she’s being annoying or something but anything negative i tell myself not to go to that place in my mind because it’s not good. She’s very caring, sometimes i feel like too caring, sometimes i feel like... a mommas boy? But not one? But then again i can see my friends moms commenting the same shit on their social media. Maybe I’m just overthinking and it’s just normal and that’s how moms are. Does anyone know what I mean when it’s like you wanna feel like your moms love is annoying but then again you think “cmon it’s your mom” “it’s normal” and not be negative about it or idk. Maybe I’m just overthinking and need to just think how, I have a great mom, and I’m lucky to have her. I love my Mom to death, I would protect her with my life, but i feel like i need to fix some things in my perspective towards her (and maybe my dad as well) Both my parents have been around since I was born I haven’t moved out yet but I’ve been living with them since I was born. I’m my own man now for the most part since I do whatever I want to do but I’m still living with my parents so I need to get my own place you know?

Sometimes I feel like I get into the wrong mindset towards my parents and it’ll make me feel bad. Sometimes I feel like we’re socially conditioned to grow up and think our parents are perfect but then we grow up and realize no one is perfect. Sometimes I feel like I overthink and get in my own head when my parents say something to me or something. Sometimes I’ll question whether or not I’m getting shit tested or they’re being genuine. Idk. I don’t want to continue having anxiety and overthinking shit with my parents, they’re my parents, who’ve been with my since the start. My parents aren’t charging me for rent, (which I’m very grateful for) I’ve helped them out financially too here and there, like getting my mom a car under my name so she could get approved since I have good credit, and got her credit cards under my business that she could use, as well as my dad for any big purchases. But also I don’t want to frame it other than they’re my parents and I’m just helping them out.

For example, I got out of bed to go to the bathroom and when I was going back to my room my mom was calling my name and I basically just ignored it because I just wanted to go back to bed and idk why my mom was calling for me but idk it made me kind of feel bad. I’m just so focused on being self dependent and am focused on getting my own place and sometimes I feel like a lot of my anxiety has to do with not living with my parents but not having my own place, my own private domain.

TLDR: my parents are amazing people, but I get anxiety because I need my own place and am focused on moving out and buying a house in January