I wouldn't say I'm ugly. Probably a 7 without acne. But it feels like acne puts you down at least 2 points of your SMV. Been reading trp for 3 years now but this fucking acne man. I go out to clubs, sure girls look at me and I get some conversation with guys and girls. But it feels like people don't want to talk that much with me since I am not attractive because of acne. I am 6"3, blonde and I have been working out for 6 months now(could'nt start earlier because not living at home and being accutane). Have a little chat with best friends then they just leave me and I sit there alone and feel like a retard. Pretty sure it isn't because of my personality. I'm laid back, got a deep voice and like to keep things on a fun level. Sure, sometimes when it's something I like, like watches I go a bit more deep into the conversation. But that's who I am. It feels like the guys who get the most pussy are the ones just caring about themselves, never asking questions about others. I don't want to be that guy. I don't have a big ego, I always want to improve myself but acne seems like something I can't get rid of. l have already been on accutane, got a good facial schedule I do everyday. Should I just go monk mode again until my acne is gone? Is acne really that much of a dealbreaker for people? Been considering ending myself but I know that isn't the right solution. Just so frustrated that the world is so superficial.

End of rant, 2.30AM Here and I am drunk. Thanks for reading and please give some tips on how to handle this.