29yr, wife is first and only girl I have ever had sex (I know), married 4 years, together 10 years, she is 29 yr too I'll skip the part when I was blue pill weak ass pussy faggot. Life is getting better as I go through life with mission

Unplugged 9 months ago - reading: NMMNG, WISNIFG, Subtle art of not giving a fuck, married man sex life primer, meditations, the way of superior man - lifting for 9 months, stats: DL 265 (120 kg) SQ 275 (125kg - 5x5) BP 220 (100 kg - 5x5) OHP 110 (50 kg - 5x5) ROW 132 (60kg - 5x5) - slim physique, somewhat visible abs but for now I don't care as I didn't cut since I started lifting cause I want more strenght (for now) - T tested and is slightly above average - I quit alcohol, weed and went on nofap 12 months ago

I have I'll say a problem with the enjoyment I receive from sexual interactions with my wife. As far as I like it I don't need it much, for me once per week is enough (even maybe more than enough). Orgasm is like meh ok I'll take it. I would say my usual arousal level during sex is 3/10. Also in terms of performance I cannot keep hard dick more then 1 sex / day and I cum fast if penetration occurs. Throughout the day I very rarely if ever think about sex. My line of thinking right now is that I self sabotage uncounciously due to fact I am not sure about my sex performance. I think I look good and I notice a lot of IOI from other girls. If I read them correctly I think if I escalated I could fuck some of them but I don't see it as thing worth pursuing because even if it happened it will be 3 minute sex so what's the point.

Far more fun for me is pursuing my mission and while I understand this is how it should be it seems like my brain says that if pursuing mission is more fun then you don't need sex to be happy. This makes me less sexual that I would like to be. Especially when I read MM SLP and I saw how much sexual 'tricks' he described I cannot imagine myself putting them into life as I just don't need them in my life (e.g. spanking). In other words, I don't feel like I need fancy dishes for dinner as I am satisfied with plain oatmeal with a bit of honey and nuts.

I think about seeing a doctor or something but for now I'd like to see if I can change things by myself. I don't trust doctors they can change me anyways.

I am looking for advice: - how to view sex so I like it more and need a little bit more - what questions additionaly should I ask myself so I can understand what's happening - long term plans I appreciated i don't look for quick solutions