This is my first post so if i make mistakes im sorry. Im right now in between blue and red pill. I was mostly raised by my mom and sister so my blue pill programming is pretty hard. Ive been reading trp just to try and not fall back into old habits but right now im having a hard time. Im 18 dating a 16 year old. I asked her today to be my girlfriend (blue pill fail that just came out in the moment). I am now having second thoughts. I have a trouble because right now im in germany and she is in arizona. And i have gotten many red flags. She always texts me about what other guys message her. Tells me about her partying and stuff like that, and even asked me today what slutty outfit she should where to a party. But like all women she tells me she is loyal and that im the best thing in her life.( i know this cant be true). The only thing holding me back is that i dont have many plates, and that i realize that i feign for validation. She always tells me im cute and shit, and always tells me what i want to hear.( i was extremely ugly as a kid so i havent fully built my confidence, eventhough i now look decent in face and have a six pack and go to the gym everyday). I have Few questions and points that i need help with.

  1. What would the best course of action be? I already gave my commitment away, and im posotive she isnt going to be loyal... AWALT

  2. any tips on not falling back into blue pilled programming?

  3. Does this sound good? Just coming back home in a week, banging her a few times and then dumping her and finding some new plates

  4. How can i get over this need for validation?