Hey r/askTRP, long time no see. I used to come here and on r/TRP and read a ton, learn a lot and implement some in my life. I was never a real alpha, but as close as i could come to, and that's when i kinda left TRP, stopped improving myself and made my biggest mistake.

Now onto the story. I won't write an essaye. Usual shit : fell for a girl and LTR'd her. No pedestal, sex was awesome, she was submisive, loving, low N count, the begin of the relationship felt like a dream. Slowly it started declining, i ignored some red flags because "love" huh... so here we are today, after 2.5 years of LTR, she goes on a long vaccation on some tropical island, and a few days in she gives me the talk : no more passion, she still "adores" me (pathetic...), she felt something for a guy during this vaccation but apparently nothing happened (i'm more or less 50/50 on that one, she was always a good person with everyone so i'll give her the benefit of the doubt). And that's how it ends.

Now, the problem is we were living together. We have to see each other for all the administrative stuff, the papers, the furniture, tv... all that shit. I told her i'll message her a bar and an hour for us to meet.

Now, i think i'm over her, all that i still feel is just the withdrawall, because i was honestly addicted to that relationship. But i still don't know how to aprehend it, how to act, remain friends or no... i would've honestly went for a no, but since we have the same social circle / group of friends, i'll always see her, and fuck but i think it would sting a bit when se gets with another guy, for at least 2 more years, when i would leave for med residency. We also work/study in the same year, at the same place so...

Fuck FUCK, how did i became this, i fuck'd up. I became someone i despise...

Thanks a lot everyone, sorry for the funky english, not my first language.