what attracted me to incel forums was that they had explanations for my problems which validated me and they also matched up with my life experience growing up. it explained a lot about why I was treated the way I was. I just couldn't accept the notion that ''some people are just bad'' things happened to me frequently enough to really make me start thinking that something was wrong with me. I knew it was because I was unattractive because people called me ugly enough times to know that but I didn't know how much looks mattered. blue pilled people kept me from incel forums for the longest time because I did believe that it was just the case of bad luck but it really isn't. this mentality kept me inside incel forums because it was validating and felt like blue pilled people are just people who don't get it and many don't really.

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after spending 5 years in black pill forums I feel like I want to move on but still feel ''black pilled'' about life in general and have a sense of apathy, emptiness, and anger. I don't really hate women anymore, but I still feel compelled to view black pilled material because without it i feel more lonely and I feel like they are the only ones who understand me. I finally mustered enough courage to scheduled an appointment with the counseling services offered by my uni and hope that it helps somewhat, but other than that I don't know what to do about my situation. am 22 and haven't been on a date before. I also have no friends and am unattractive. am a lame and boring person overall with a bland dull personality. feel like my whole being is flawed.