Hi ya'll,

Some of you know me and some of you don't. I was a former mod here and at the old official Discord server known as V3 and also a former Red Pilled woman for over a decade, well-known veteran Xbox gamer of almost 15-years, video game guide writer on TrueAchievements, official worker of a famous game dev at PAX, an official worker at a famous Comic Con, web dev, an owner and operator of a decade-old and consistently award-winning business before I was violently cancelled, blackmailed, stalked, and doxxed (by self-proclaimed Red Pillers who tried to get between me and several of my relationships), and an exhausted wife, girlfriend, mother, sister, and daughter.

I started 2021 with a project in mind and even though I was absolutely terrified, out of my goddamn fucking mind, and wanted to throw up for every day that I had to battle some user's mental illnesses, personality disorder, evil insides, shadow, extremism, forgeries that were tied to my name, chucklefuck trolls (if you can even call what they put me through as "trolling"), I pushed through, even with my own issues. I didn't want this life anymore. I didn't want these toxic Red Pillers in my life anymore. I wanted to find love. I didn't want to be so bound to all these rules. But I needed help. I channeled the energy of my favorite female characters like Anya Oliwa, Diana Burnwood, Natasha Romanoff, Crazy Jane, Cameron Howe and two of my favorite men on the planet, Robin Williams and Jim Carrey, to add a whole lotta humor to my "game". 😉

This experience was one of the most enlightening experiences I have ever been through, but with everyone's help, we channeled the great Gandalf, fought the Balrog, and we all did what needed to be done to get the toxic Red Pill coaches and whatnot exposed, and brought the light into a very dark world full of lies, exaggerations, broken trust, broken relationships, thought reform, loneliness, greed, etc. I had to accept that I had no control over how it was going to go (thank you to the real version of Stoicism that gave me the inner strength to take this on). I put my blind faith in a God that I had grown to doubt and hate over the years, dove in head first, said "fuck it", and gave it my all. I had a plan that got changed in fifty different ways, was absolutely reckless some days, but we learned and pushed through, laughed, made friends, watched movies together, talked until all hours of the night, etc.

When we started, there were 10k people here and now, at the end of a super fucked up year, ex-Red Pill has grown to almost 15k and I have no doubt that it will continue to grow as real and worthy people and coaches like Aba & Preach, Vaush, Expose the Manosphere, Macabre Storytelling, and many others that continue to push and stand up for integrity within these networks, focus on REAL self-help, healing with their words, repairing trust, avoid abuse and exploitation, mental health care for men, lessons in social mores for men that are on the spectrum or suffer with other mental health issues, abuse survivor support (especially for male victims that are forced to suffer in silence because of stupid fucking stigmas - I see you and I fight with you), and those that train men who came from broken and abusive homes how to be a real Alpha men: one who carries himself with healthy pride, shows his love for good women and keeps them safe, sees through shitty women (and knows the difference), learns to control his emotions, keeps his monsters on a leash, heals from his past, battle addictions and demons, create and enforce boundaries, and the other very necessary skills that take years to master, but put him above the rest.

I could write about this topic until my fingers bleed, but I will save that for my "Confessions of a Former Femcel" (©) book that I hope to co-write with some of my friends. I just wanted to stop in before the new year started and give a special thanks to everyone that walked this journey with me, helped me push through, and carried my ass to the finish line when I was too exhausted to continue due to my DID, amnesia, Asperger's, and C-PTSD from the severe trauma and brain damage I endured throughout my life. I certainly made an ass of myself and had lots of people questioning the type of person I really was, understanding of the person I needed to be, and showing an abundance of love toward me no matter which version of me came out. I love you guys so much. We are legion.

With love,

V3

"He uncovers mysteries hidden in darkness; he brings light to the deepest gloom." -Job 12:22 NLT