Hi ya'll,
Some of you know me and some of you don't. I was a former mod here and at the old official Discord server known as V3 and also a former Red Pilled woman for over a decade (non-Reddit version), well-known veteran Xbox gamer of almost 15-years, video game guide writer on TrueAchievements (special thanks to my guide manager that worked hard to protect me when shit hit the fan), an owner and operator of a decade-old and consistently award-winning business before I was violently cancelled, assaulted, and doxxed, survivor, teacher, and an exhausted Wife, Girlfriend, Mother, Sister, and Daughter.
I started 2021 with a project in mind and even though I was absolutely terrified, unequipped, out of my goddamn fucking mind, and wanted to throw up for every day that I had to battle some user's mental illnesses, personality disorder, evil insides, shadow, extremism, and "trolling" (if you can even call what they put me through as trolling), I pushed through, even with my own issues. I channeled the energy of my favorite female characters like Anya Oliwa, Art3mis, Diana Burnwood, Yennefer, Selina Kyle, Natasha Romanova, Crazy Jane, Cameron Howe, Harley Quinn, and two of my favorite men on the planet, Robin Williams and Jim Carrey, to add a whole lotta humor to my "game". 😉
With the help of the mods (special thank you to Detox), homies over at r/BroPill, my shadow crew that stuck by me, the friends I made around the world, and thousands of random users that stood behind me and supported me, I did what I needed to do. I pushed my morals and ethics aside on many of those days and I forced my way in like toxic Red Pillers forced their way into my life, family, friendships, and mind. Just like them, I "trolled", I lied, distorted my truths, pretended to be dumb, used plausible deniability, and many other ways I learned from them to demonstrate how painful this program can really be for their victims and helped the world see a dark and mostly leaderless cult that had hidden in the shadows for far too long (another special thanks to Steven Hassan for helping me escape and teach me what I needed to learn to heal and this post that planted the necessary seed of doubt). The sheer number of people they tricked into hurting other people under false pretenses is absolutely, without a doubt, criminal. I hope your come to Jesus moment hits before you get pwned and cancelled like I was. The blood of the people that died from your lies is on your hands.
This experience was one of the most enlightening experiences I have ever been through, but with everyone's help, we channeled the great Gandalf, fought the Balrog, and we all did what needed to be done to get the toxic Red Pill coaches and whatnot exposed, and brought the light into a very dark world. I had to accept that I had no control over how it was going to go (thank you to the real version of Stoicism that gave me the inner strength to take this on). I put my blind faith in a God that I had grown to doubt and hate over the years, dove in head first, said "fuck it", and gave it my all. I had a plan that got changed in a hundred different ways, was absolutely reckless some days, but we learned and pushed through.
When we started, there were just over 10k people here and now, at the end of a super fucked up year (seriously though, Covid can lick my box), ex-Red Pill has grown to almost 15k and I have no doubt that it will continue to grow as real and worthy people and coaches like Aba & Preach, Vaush, Expose the Manosphere, Macabre Storytelling, and many others that continue to push and stand up for integrity within these networks that focus on REAL self-help, healing with their words, repairing trust, avoid abuse and exploitation, mental health care for men, lessons in social mores for men that are on the spectrum or suffer with other mental health issues, abuse survivor support (especially for male victims that are forced to suffer in silence because of fucking useless stigmas - I see you and I fight with you), and those that train men who came from broken and abusive homes how to be a real Alpha men: one who carries himself with healthy pride, shows his love for women and keeps them safe, learns to control his emotions, keeps his monsters on a leash, heals from his past, and the other very necessary skills that take years to master, but put him above the rest.
I could write about this topic until my fingers bleed, but I will save that for my "Confessions of a Former Femcel" (©) book that I hope to co-write with some of my friends. I just wanted to stop in before the new year started and give a special thanks to everyone that walked this journey with me, helped me push through, and carried my thicc-ass to the finish line when I was too exhausted to continue due to my DID, amnesia, Asperger's, and C-PTSD from the severe trauma and brain damage I endured throughout my life. I certainly made an ass of myself and had lots of people questioning the type of person I really was, understanding of the person I needed to be, and showing an abundance of love toward me no matter which version of me came out. I love you guys so much. We are legion.
>!To my worst abuser who took my innocence as a child and made all this drama possible: I'm glad you're dead and I hope you're burning in Hell and hopefully sucking dirty dick for eternity. Job 12:22 NLT. 🖕!<
With love,
V3
P.S. To the man that I know lurks here, has beautiful dimples, has a deep and forgiving heart, put up with my DID for too many years, taught me to be like water, and that forever changed my life, mind, and heart in profound ways starting in 2014. I know we don't talk anymore, but I hope that someday you forgive me for the person I needed to be to complete this phase of my journey. Despite everything, you are loved more than I could ever express and I am so fucking proud of you. I am deeply humbled from the experience and as I said from the beginning of our friendship, the woman who gets you will be one fucking lucky woman and better treat you like the King you are. Your heart shines very differently than what I was used to, hit me like thirty-three tons of bricks, but literally saved my life. This one is for you: https://open.spotify.com/track/2jInqordvxCfIgaq3iyLk8?si=1e6649cc4af1432f (oh, and this one for old time sake: https://open.spotify.com/track/3qT4bUD1MaWpGrTwcvguhb?si=5a3cdccf11764eae 🧁)
