Before TRP I dared to be my autistic self with all the weirdness that it included, but when I found TRP and wanted to put myself out there and meet some girls, I would go to clubs and parties where I had to stand the loud music that caused me sensory overload. I had to mask myself so heavily because I was a "redpilled" alpha male now where autism is not allowed. I would constantly be active in social interactions and exclude extroversion when I in fact just wanted to slip into my own world.

Now when I look back, I realize I could've moved mountains with all the energy I spent on autistic masking, and I guess it starting with needing to have a high "SMV" where weirdness and betadom wasn't allowed.