I genuinely do not know where my paranoia comes from when if comes to women. I have tried online dating and have had a fair amount of matches. How ever I always end up canceling the date because I believe women always have some hidden agenda or that I am just gonna get used again then friendzoned. I genuinely have no trust in any woman on the planet. I can't help but become consumed that they are all hypergamous and that Women don't provide anything in a relationship besides sex. I have learned to take care of every physical/emotional need by myself. The narcissistic abuse from my mother was too much I had to get out. I don't think a psychiatrist or psychology could change my views about them because if the therapist was a woman I would not open up. I would just double down on my narcissistic thoughts towards them.
