Hi everybody I’ve always been more so purple pill bc I can’t connect or even have intimacy with a woman until I am emotionally invested and I feel like they are the same . The problem is 4 days ago My 3 year LTR ended at my girlfriends choice . She even asked if I wanted to take break or breakup completely and I said we should just break up instead of calling it a break . I’m 21 and very immature I’ve come to realize and I had my heart broke when I was younger which caused me to look into red pill knowledge about a year into our relationship , but this made me partially hate women and their covert communication . I’ve come to realize that there’s nothing wrong with this and they are just different but it took a breaking up to see it . I really did love her and she was there for me through all the shit I put her through and doing a bunch of red pill manipulation on her . She went through my phone about two weeks ago and saw a old note in my phone that basically said to be wary when she goes out because her friends are single and it hurt her . I also threatened to break up multiple times with her in the past because I felt no other way for her to change certain disrespect she kept repeating to me . She definitely had her flaws but i should have addressed it with love rather than being so cold with her . When we met I was a much better person who didn’t play any of these silly games and I don’t regret taking trp, I just regret being so manipulative . I need advice if it’s best I completely move on or reach out maybe in a month or so (or wait for her) to let her know I have changed and want to treat her so much better . I’m not naive to the point of thinking she’s the only one out there but there was definitely true love that I let go . What would you do in my shoes as a 21 year old man ?