Long story short, got dumped a while ago, relapsed on the 5 stages of red pill, returned to acceptance a shorter while ago and I can now get women to admit red pill truths consistently again.

However, one girl I recently met happened to be really cool and it has been a while since I really felt what you could call male tingles for a girl. She knows I'm a man whore and whatnot but the other day I basically purposely beta'd myself in such a way (i.e. I care about your problems, talk to me!) as a response to I guess missing the feel of being in a relationship? As we all know she started responding to messages less frequently. I don't really care but this did trigger an introspection. I suppose I just miss being in a relationship and she was someone I'd LTR with. I even told my friend after our first date I was going to marry her (he knows I'm a man whore and laughed it off but I was half serious in that moment, in spite of how deep I am with the red pill). Is this a normal thing after being red pilled for almost two years? From what I've experimented on I simply cannot plate a woman. It's either LTR or have multiple fuck buddies, and I don't have enough trust for an LTR anymore.