I've been dating my current girlfriend since the summer of 2021. Technically we're long distance because she's still living at her university campus in another city, but we're still very close and call each other daily, and see each other whenever possible. We're both on the same page about our serious monogamous relationship, and have incredible trust with each other.
When I first met her, she was a very reserved girl, and her ex in 2018 made her feel horrible in many ways. While it may seem that some of that baggage carried over, I was able to help her talk about it and open up about some of her trauma, and we developed a great connection where we literally share everything with each other.
Recently, she revealed to me that post-breakup (2019-2021), she had a tinder phase where she would go over to random guys' places for hookups (mostly one night stands, with the exception of 2 FWBs).
This didn't bother me at all of course, since it's natural for any partner to have had intimate relationships prior to meeting them (note: I've only had sex in serious relationships, which is 3).
However, because she was super comfortable with me, she told me that she has a breeding kink which she developed over those tinder years. Basically, with every guy she hooked up with, she didn't force them to use condoms unless they wanted to (which was super rare for tinder guys to want), and she let them finish inside of her. Because she was on the IUD, she felt "empowered" with how she was able to have raw sex and not get pregnant. She followed up by saying how she would get STD testing done monthly.
However, she went on to elaborate that the goal from her tinder phase wasn't to have mind blowing sex and orgasms with different men; she claimed her goal was to literally "get the guy's c*m". She couldn't care less if the guy was horrible in bed, as long as she got the load in her then it was mission accomplished. She claimed she did that so that there was no way she could ever get disappointed; she always got what she wanted.
Naturally, I've been feeling really unsettled by this revelation. She's STD-free fortunately, and I admire her sexual confidence and pride in being a sexual person in a monogamous relationship now, but the idea that dozen have guys have drained their balls inside of her without a condom has left me having difficulty to breath at times.
While she and I have a great relationship, and she is super honest and kind and trustworthy, knowing that she acted that way in the past is devastating.
I'm not sure what to do, whether I should bring this up with her or just try to get over it?
TL;DR - My girlfriend has let every tinder hookup finish inside her raw ever since she got on the IUD in 2018, due to her breeding kink, this makes me feel incredibly uneasy and disturbed. Should I talk to her about it?
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