I have been doing pickup since past one year. I really enjoy in the moment when I am out having fun. But when I am alone, I think is it really something I want? I want to start my business and work really hard on it. And having meaning less sex with lots of women. Is also not helping me achieve my goals, it's just wasting my energy. On the other side I can't avoid hypergamy. This makes me so confusing, and this is why I am going out to keep my game sharp. I don't know if I will get LTR that is loyal. I mean look at Elon Musk even he can't be alpha in all area of life. Do I really have to give up something to be in top?