i dumped a 2 year-long LTR last year and have lost all the SMV I had prior to the relationship since then. In order to get rid of her, I dumped her, kept fucking her while living with her, and then arranged with a side-bitch to have her walk in on us fucking. It worked, and she cut contact completely.

Problem is, she quickly teamed up with a rival AMOG with higher SMV (we don't get along). They moved in together and became a hotbed of social activity that I was obviously barred from participating in. My friends regularly went to their parties, meeting new people, girls, and making memories. I lost out on these opportunities.

I realized my "friends" were utilitarian and nobody gave a shit about me or the position i was in, so I walked away. I lone-wolf'd for awhile and fucked several girls I had left on a good dicking note prior to the LTR. It was ok, but I still had no friends and i felt like a loser.

Went to mexico with some old out-of-state friends. Had a blast. Came home and still felt like a loser. Recently went to Thailand alone and gamed/fucked girls that didn't even speak english. Had a blast. Came home and am still a loner/loser. At this point in my life I've fucked 46 girls and it means nothing.

I'd love to say I have a decent career but I got a useless degree in college and spent most of the time partying and fucking girls. This eats at me as well. I have no real skills and can only command 16$/hr. I see/hear of friends making 60k, starting businesses. Seems like a fairy-tale to me.

I'm studying CCNA material hoping I can transition to computer networking. Maybe I could go work in an oilfield. Maybe I could get my TEFL and teach English overseas. My lack of mastery in anything makes me feel like a child and it eats at my subconscious. I want to feel secure in who I am and feel dignified in the life I'm living.

I guess ultimately I'm asking: What should I prioritize in my life? Thanks