I want to change my life but I don't know where to begin and how I can to do it correctly. I'm here to ask if some of you understand (or even know) my situation and know how I can change it to good.

Some informations about me: - I recently turned 20 and I'm still a kissless virgin loser. - I'm 181cm tall (5'11'') and weigh 65kg (143lb) - Moved last week into a new town - I'm a student - My father left before I was born - My mother didn't pay much attention to me for various reasons

Maybe it's noteworthy that I wasn't a horny teenager in school. Of course I had crushes but the feeling that I want to fuck with every hot girl came about one and a half year ago.

Well, it's obvious that I'm way to slim, but I think I can change that myself. My real problem that I'm a social retard. I don't have many friends and nearly no female friends. The few I have are always girlfriends of friends of female friends of them.

I'm very shy until I know someone. I am not talkative because I can't think of something interesting to talk about. I'm really bad at small talk. And I can't think how I can fix that. Sometimes I try it but then I come off as awkward and feel crushed and withdraw myself. Obviously I can't let that define the rest of my life, so I ask for help.

Sorry if I made any mistakes. English isn't my native language.