I keep having recurring dreams about a plate that was almost made an LTR. I don't have oneitis about her and I treated everything like a learning experience for me a learned a lot about The Red Pill because it was my first time getting out of the friend zone with a girl and it esclated to me taking her virginity (hymen was still intact so I know she was still a virgin) and she was a geniunely cool girl. But that doesn't mean I still have feelings for her. Quite the opposite really. I was the one who ended shit with her because we could never go on dates over the summer (most of the time it was my scheduling) so I just said alright bye. I just feel nothing about her. I don't have anyway to contact her and I just don't feel anything for her. What I think contributes to this is that I'm in a very small private high school and anyone leaving is a huge deal. So I'm surrounded by immature shit all the time where girls I'm trying to plate either are like "Are you and _ still a thing?" or "You hurt my friend how do I know you're not gonna do the same to me?" which are shit tests I usually pass fine but I think it's all contributing to the dreams I have. I'm also surrounded by her constantly, she goes to all of my school events. Most of the dreams are just me and her hanging out and going on a normal date. I don't know why these occur because I just don't have any feelings for her whatsoever I still fuck other girls and talk to many more.