Allow me to give a bit of exposition regarding my SMV so you can understand my predicament:

I am a home schooled 17 year old with zero experience with girls, and as of recently identified as a MGTOW due to farcical family law and the risks of copulation and cohabitation with women.

However, recent events put me into contact with female units of our species, and I realized that becoming a MGTOW monk would be impossible due to my incredibly high sex drive. Upon this realization, I did an SMV evaluation to see what I'd have to do to acquire sexual resources from females. Here is the result:

  • Excellent Physique (I'm a power lifter who is naturally VERY lean. I possess an optimal shoulder to waist ratio, wide back, and decent traps and neck)

  • Possess above average facial features (Right hair style and body fat% I push a 9 on facial aesthetics)

  • Strong jawline

  • Deep voice

  • Aggressive, competitive, high sex drive, and low in empathy

These things, as you most likely know, are indicators of high testosterone. A further analysis on the males in my family proved that these traits are a common theme. Great I'm off to a good start.

  • Possess above average intelligence (Never had my IQ tested, and I'm a lazy student, but estimates from highly intelligent people around me have them indicating an IQ between 2 - 3 standard deviations above the mean)

  • Musically inclined (Play classical piano, and come from a family in which everyone plays an instrument or sings)

A further analysis on siblings and ancestry revealed these traits in high abundance. On top of high testosterone, mental faculties appear to be operating at reasonable efficiency.

  • Own and run a business

  • Have large sums of money and investments

  • Making contacts with increasingly higher value members of the industry I work in

  • Read and listen to several books a month

  • Work 12 hours a day

This has been accumulated within the past 22 months, as I dedicated my life to a set of goals when I was 16 and have not stopped grinding since then. And, relating this once again to my familial history: I come from a family of highly successful entrepreneurs and academics.

According to the above aforementioned traits and accomplishments, I placed my SMV at 7 - 7.5. However, when factoring in the negatives, things go a bit downhill:

The Negatives:

Height - 5'8 (5'9 in shoes, probably done growing)

Social skills - Absolute shit (A product of a high IQ and homeschooling)

Logistics - Terrible (Can't think of any places to even look for females to acquire, and I wake up at 4:30 AM and go to sleep at 8:30, so socializing at night is out of the question)

Style - Monumentally shit (Because of my work, I haven't put any effort into figuring out a good style for myself. I also have extremely long hair which makes me look like a viking warrior when I put it into a bun)

Taking these into account, I bumped my SMV down to anywhere between 4 - 5, but a more realistic estimate would probably place it around 3. I'm attempting, through mindfulness meditation and visualization to overcome arrogance. It's a slow and painful process.

Regarding Insecurity:

There was a point to the exposition laid out abov; it was to give you an image, an abstraction, of what I look like to the outside world. Despite a 3 being extremely low in SMV, I venture to say it plummets down to a 1 when my mental game is factored in:

My estimated IQ makes it difficult to relate to people. My reaction to 95% of socialization is "This is inane garbage that is not worthy of my time." Whenever I do get to speaking, it's highly esoteric (I spend my free time studying AI, physics, philosophy etc.) so no one knows what the hell I'm talking about. People also often say I look as if I want to kill everyone in the room because my face naturally scowls.

But, despite how terrible THIS is, it's even worse when you consider that socialization at that level is very rare. I'm a recluse who works hard and has a few close friends/business associates. We act differently from average people, and it's frustrating trying to learn game because of this. I don't understand social cues, I don't know if someone is attracted to me, and I don't know how to have a normal conversation.

The big kicker is my height. I couldn't have cared less about my height until I decided to learn game. Now it's my greatest insecurity and a motherfucker to deal with. It doesn't matter how confident I get: My height creates a confidence vacuum, sucking it all out and replacing it with doubt. You'd think this wouldn't be the case with a great physique, but the better looking I've gotten the more insecure I've become!

Finally, we come to logistics and time:

I really, really want to lose my virginity before I'm 18. I have 3 and a half months before I turn 18, and I don't know where to start socializing with people. Should I go to sports events? Should I try to reach out through friends? Should I throw a massive party with the money I've acquired? So many different ideas run through my head but I don't know which ones are the right ones, and I feel tremendous doubt towards all of them. I know it's probably impossible to lose my virginity before I'm 18, but I want to accomplish the goal damn it.

I ask you, if you're willing, to look over what I've written and give me something I can take action upon. I want to start working, I just don't know where to begin.