There was this one girl I met while I was still holding on to blue pill very strongly. I thought that girls only liked certain guys and I would never get what I want because I am who I am bla bla bla.

Anyways, I met this girl, and it’s like she had all the traits of a perfect girl in my eyes. One that went with the flow, liked what I liked and just wanted to live independently and fuck because it is fun.

She came into my life, was different than all the other girls, then left quickly. I’m not really attached this girl, hell I barely even know her. It’s just like she opened my eyes to the fact that the girls I’m looking for really fucking exist. There are girls out there that I can genuinely let go around. It opened my eyes to what I have come to know as “blindspots”.

I keep her in my memory and I like it up in that spot of concentration within my mind. It’s the fire behind my self improvement. It reminds me to just do what I want to do, that a girl will like that I don’t give a fuck about he norms or what may be “cool”.

I’ve been a blind (figuratively) socially inept guy my whole life. The big realization was when she started chatting me up, I was trying to get her to go with me to some party. Yet she was like, “yea I’m tired I was planning on going home smoking and watching a movie.” I was stunned in that moment, I was trying so hard to be someone that I wasn’t that when a girl came along FOR ME I was not able to capitalize.

Now I feel as though I am preparing for the landing of “my other half” as they say. I am surrounding my life with things that I love because I know that this is the way to be ready for the girls I truly vibe with.

Maybe this is more of a rant than anything else. But I ask you: does anybody else hold this sort of mentality? That you working so hard to “be prepared to catch your best half”?(shoutsout to Atmosphere)