I've been drinking everyday. I have regular panic attacks. I imagine I'm on a field in China, in a firefight, running for cover, and suddenly-BOW- the lights go out and I stop existing forever. I would never even know I was hit.
I'm convinced Biden/Harris will star war with Russia or China, and an all male draft will be enacted. It's possibly it'll be an all white-male draft too...when you think about the current political climate, it makes sense. It would be said that due to historical racial injustice that still prevails, it is unjust to draft men of color against their will. And so only white men will be sent to die.
What scares me is how popular this view is among the young/left/feminist/progressive type. What I hear on campus, twitter, reddit, with friends, overhearing strangers, etc- there is a fervor for war that I've never seen before. Seeing a group of 16 year old girls eating at the table across from me talking passionately about how we need to invade China to free the Uyghurs in the camps. But of course, they don't really mean "we", they really mean me. It'll be all the white males who don't want the war and don't support Biden's war who will be forced to go. It'll be like a social cleanse of "undesirables"...aka, me.
I'm really scared. I go to sleep thinking about it. I wake up thinking about it. I have panic attacks near constantly. I'm back living at home since covid hit LA and destroyed my industry. Luckily I'm working, but it's not the same.
I have a horrible feeling that there's tens of millions of people who don't really see me as human, I'm just a "white male." They hate me, and they can't wait to ship me off to my death. Those people won't even care if we win the war. As long as the undesirables are eradicated.
Most would say this sounds crazy- I would have once, too. But for the past 10 years, I'm been very good at predicting what political trends would happen and when. I knew around 2014 you'd see a massive surge in progressive activism on social media. That happened; we called them SJWs. I knew the 2016 election would be an extension of this social war, the "SJW" side versus the "alt right" side. The older generations didn't really see this or understand it- they still don't- but people my age very much feel what's happening.
I knew the late 2010s/early 2020s were going to be extremely divisive and tense, as society sort of splits into to. People are beginning to see the battle lines aren't quite so simple anymore, as everyone feels a sort of "push". You are either
SIDE A:
LEFT
DEMOCRAT
FEMINIST
PROGRESSIVE
LIBERAL
BLM
etc
or
SIDE B:
REPUBLICAN
RIGHT
TRUMP
MEN'S RIGHTS
ALT-RIGHT
etc.
And you're not given much of a choice. Tick any of those boxes? Well, that's it, you're labeled as that. Socialist. Man hater. Neo Nazi. Misogynist. Racist. Radical
Society is so tense because the vast majority of people aren't this way. They don't understand quite what's happening, they just see a very large opponent on the other side calling them bigots and extremists and dangerous. And so they shout the same back. Look at me, I'm one of them! And I'm scared.
