I'd really like some insight. I know how much TRP shits on party girls but as someone who's shy, introverted, and barely has friends, I have questions.

I'm 22, and I'm pretty lonerish. I don't have many girl friends and i'm in college. I do meet a few girls a couple times a week (i'm on a girls rugby team at a neighbouring school) and they're really fun and outgoing and outspoken about their sex lives and promiscuity.

When we go on nights out, the girls usually make competitions on who can 'pull' by the end of the night at the club and they're always laughing and happy. I'm still a virgin and I have a boyfriend that has a colourful past when it comes to women since he lost his v card when he was 16. I know compared to most of his exes (due to me growing up religious) I'm prudish and probably awful at sex and I'm kind of at a crossroads of breaking up with him because of the distance and just how awful I feel about not being good enough sexually.

I was severely harrassed and bullied in high school by this guy, and because of it, obviously changed the way I interacted with people and devestatingly affected my self-esteem. I do have a boyfriend but we're long distance and I don't even know if it's helping me in the slighting as I only see him a few times a year.

My mom married my dad a virgin and they're divorced after 3 kids. So TRP is obviously wrong on some parts because really, that should've worked out and it didn't. I don't really think a low sexual partner count has much impact on relationships if even (and I can think of atleast 6 other women in my family that have saved themselves for marriage and are currently divorced)

But RPW kind of is against that sort of lifestyle totally. is it really that bad to be the party girl? Why does it feel like the grass is greener on the other side? I'm only young and beautiful once and I don't want to wait until I'm older, feel like I have to "wait" for someone only to have it go to shit.

What do I need to do to get out of this weird rut and feel sexually, morally, physically attractive and just grown? Do I need to ditch my LTR? Do I need to befriend more slutty girls? How do I become less shy and have a higher self-esteem?