I know this is a beta sounding post. But I am really trying. Here I am again after another failed romance in which I was too needy and seeking for that LTR I so desperately want. I did keep the honor to myself and soft nexted her when I saw that my avances were going nowhere, but I feel terrible and depressed. It is not even about girls anymore, it is the fact that I cant seem to build attraction with girls, because my normal self is just boring I guess. Whenever something like this happens, I resort to destructive behaviour and eat and masturbate excessively. I am just tired of it. I know this is not really a question but I just needed to vent and perhaps some advice would be appreciated.