2 months post divorce - Update

2 months after the judge finalized our divorce. I have moved on and I see a viable future/life ahead. Here is where I’m at:

• Bought a new house, making it my own. It is nice to have my own space and use it how I want. Great backyard for my dog in a great area.

• Going steady with a girl 6 years younger than me for 5 months now. We are enjoying life together, but I am still conscious of my lack of trust and I have communicated that to her. I have knocked down some of my mental/emotional “walls” with her and she has noticed this.

• No contact with the ex wife for 3 weeks. Prior to that she would reach out every few weeks asking about things owed post divorce. There is nothing else owed at this point. I told her never to contact me again unless it’s to have an actual conversation, versus just asking for something related to the divorce each time.

All in all, it’s been pretty good. Sometimes I get really angry that all of this has happened and I hate her for it. There are times where I really miss her still, but that part of me has begun to grow numb. No more tears, but I know I am sad at times. I let those emotions come and they serve their purpose, then I move on. Part of me wants her in my life, but then the other part of me knows there’s no way that’s even possible given our history.

I am living my life the best way I can and I didn’t even think this was possible last winter when I was really going through the shit storm. Thankfully, no kids and our divorce was pretty amicable. No alimony or anything. There is light at the end of the tunnel!!