Most of us will never be the dream guy for any girl. It's a sad reality that aligns with the acceptance of the blackpill ideology.

I've never dreamed of being involved with multiple women or having them beg me for sex. I simply desire one person who is honest, appreciates my efforts, respects me, and desires a genuine connection.

While some might find success with casual relationships, those of us here probably won't enjoy that lifestyle. Trying to lead a woman isn't feasible for me; I've always seen women as capable of offering equal input in discussions, if not in terms of physical strength, money, and other aspects due to my higher income compared to most women.

Observing ex-girlfriends who quickly move on to new partners has been an eye-opener. Personally, I can't be intimate with a woman unless I know her well. It's surprising to me that some men can engage with complete strangers in that way, as I can't relate to it.

Despite never having assaulted or bullied a woman in person, it's puzzling why some women on Reddit display anger towards men like us. It's disheartening to be born with a certain mindset and not fit societal standards of attractiveness.

Additionally, it's difficult to hear insults, shame, and ridicule directed at us, especially when we've never mistreated women. While I don't harbor resentment for not being an 8+, I do feel frustrated that women are willing to engage with men who put in minimal effort, while disregarding those of us who value more meaningful connections.

I haven't sought out hookups; my focus has been on serious relationships. Although I experimented with redpill pickup artistry, it only made me sadder. Being honest, seeking input from a partner, and making mutual decisions were seen as seeking validation or being weak. In contrast, maintaining control and making unilateral decisions were perceived as strengths by women.

I'm not interested in a woman who can be manipulated by pickup artists. My purpose in exploring pickup artistry wasn't to have casual encounters, but rather to test its effectiveness, which unfortunately proved to be quite successful.

It's a sorrowful existence, and I've nearly lost hope of finding a good-hearted woman who values effort and equality. Experience has taught me that such individuals might be few and far between.