For Ryan:

Mate I have so many insecurities it’s killing me. My weight my teeth my personality you name I have it. I can’t go over my trust issues and insecurities and it’s fucking killing me. Tonight has been especially fucking bad but this is a 24/7 occurrence in fucking hate myself and I don’t know how to fucking change that no matter how hard I fucking try. Everyday feels like another day and it’s like what’s the fucking point. I am not going to kill myself don’t worry but fuck me this life is shite. Don’t know what I want from this message just need to tell somebody that I am feeling like utter shite and your mate so unlucky mate