I had an interesting relationship with this girl where we hung out all the time there was always sexual tension, but I had issues with engaging fully with the reasoning unbeknownst to me. The story starts in 2019.

I met this girl (we will call her Nancy) through a friend who I’ve been friends with since high school. She(19) got to know each other for half a year where we saw each other every day, no sex, but always sexual tension. There were instances where I (20 at the time) would take her out to parties and she would make a move. There were two instances I want to address specifically, 1 I took her to a party we made out at the party and when it was time to go home, she came back to my place and the most we did was hand stuff, she didn’t seem to into it and she really just wanted dick. I wasn’t hard so I guess I wasn’t feeling her at the moment, and we ended up just going to sleep with nothing ever happening. A couple days later we were at her place and we started making out and the same thing happened, I couldn’t get hard and we ended up going to sleep a little later. I don’t know if it’s a lack of interest or whatever but I couldn’t fuck her. I’m pretty sure this was one of the reasons she moved to Canada for a couple months which is when COVID 2020 hit and everyone was in lock down. Now during this time I’m FaceTiming her every day while she is away and we are talking, I can’t help but think that she moved because she couldn’t hang out with me anymore. She comes back for the summer and we hang out a couple more times now in group settings where she starts bringing her ex around. I can’t help but think this is to make me jealous which I’m all honesty it did. I’m typically bad with people acting a certain way to induce a certain emotion or reaction so I pushed.

Fast forward to now, I haven’t seen her in a year and I asked her to go see a movie. She said yes and I picked her up, all the while she is on her phone and clearly not into it. I made a move and it-ended with me sitting alone for 10 minutes in the back of my own car. I think it’s time to let go of this girl and there’s nothing I can do. I want to know what I did wrong so I don’t end up chasing again.