During Covid I was so happy to be free of the distractions of my career and women and just focus on myself and what it is I love. It was great. Yet some how I find myself immediately jumping right back into my old ways now that (at least here in Texas) things are going back to normal. I'm back to having a rotation of women and different sexual partners each week (or more). In reflection I'm kind of a slut. I love women. Love meeting new women particularly. I generally loose interest fast. I like the sparks in the beginning, being flirtatious, and the game of seduction. And sex. I love sex. But I hate condoms. And I almost never meet anyone I'd consider dating. I don't think it's bc I'm scared of dating more seriously/monogamously, but I'm generally not impressed and at 33 I start to look towards the younger women who tend to be physically more attractiive but mentally...shall we say less attractive. So on one end I love this lifestyle of pulling women, but on the other there are some concerns. First of all bc I hate condoms there usually is a subtle present fear of getting someone pregnant or a std. But more than that I think I'm addicted. I find myself seeking more and more. It consumes my mental more and more. I'm on dating apps now and god knows that doesn't help. But its so hard not to when theres so many beautiful women close by that are down.I feel I'm in the mecca of the world for women and I want to take advantage. It's also hard not to think I should get it when the getting is good.

The truth is my life is not in order. My career is completely in the air. My relationship with friends and family could be stronger. There are some very important things in my life that need work, and I'm beginning to suspect all this playerdum might be a way to cope and avoid this reality. I think I need help yall. I want to stop, but it is hard when you know how easy it is. Quite frankly I might be addicted to sex and more specifically having new experiences. I'm more or less writing this to vent, but I am interested in yalls thoughts. This all started because I googled how to stop being a player, and funny enough everything was on how to become one. I feel like controlling my sexual desire and becoming more A-sexual is necessary for me at some point. So I guess I'm interested in what the reddit world thinks? Especially older wiser men. Any one have any thoughts or advice to offer. This lifestyle I'm living, chasing women, is that shit clown shit for suckers? How do you stop?

Please don't judge harshly just venting for myself and open to ideas