I was always the kind of guy to suspect everyone, I could trust to a certain degree but I would always end up paranoid, thinking that some of my friends will try to fuck my girl, or hook up with exes or do shit like that. At the moment I'm freaking out, I have very few male friends, meaning people that are very close to me, like 2-3 I've been choosing in the past few years but at times I question their deeper motives a lot. Trust issues or something else? I don't know what to think of, it's basically cultivated fear of others letting me down and double crossing me and fucking me behind my back or even right in my face but why is this?