I dont really know where to begin. I've always been told I'm attractive but growing up I never had real success with women, and usually my interactions have all been scarring to say the least.

The one experience that was the worst I think was the way my ex-girlfriend and I stopped having sex. During the last time she started hysterically crying saying she couldn't have sex anymore, then became religious(I think it was a ploy to break up with me). This was about 3 years ago, since then I became sort of depressed for awhile then decided I needed to man up and move on.

I met a another girl, I had no problem picking her up and we dated for about 3 weeks. During week 3 we finally had sex and the first time it was great and no issue, the next time it was fine for awhile then my erection failed, the third time nothing happened then I went into freak-out mode and ended up breaking up with her.

Since then I just constantly fear failing, I've tried to meditate, tried to be present in the moment with everything more, started working out way more then I used too, and took up JuJistu. Roughly a year later I felt confident to try and date again. I met another girl, decided maybe I needed to play it slower. We would make out and I would pre-cum whenever we did. I decided to try and make the move and my erection immediately died and I couldn't do anything. I decided to try again the next day and the same thing happened. So freak-out mode kicked in and I broke up with her.

Now I really dont know what to do, I want to date but I feel like if I even mention this issue the girl will run, but also my motivation is absolutely destroyed to even attempt to date. I'm also fearing that I'm inexperienced now at 27 since its been so long since I've actually dated which is leading to more insecurity. Im also noticing whenever I talk to girls now i'm fearful and it never used to be this way. I've been attempting nofap and no porn now for almost a year, I keep getting up to 60 streaks going, so I dont think porn is an issue. I'm eventually going to talk to a therapist but cant afford it right now, so I was hoping in the meantime I could get some advice which would be much appreciated.