I'm reading TRP for around 3 years and due to a relationship with a BPD I get to be pretty damaged myself. What I can tell you from the past 3 years is that TRP is really working: dreading, agree and amplify, not showing emotions, lifting, not mate guarding, being mysterious, leaving the impression that I'm fucking other girls: all this work!

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I was the plate for a girl for 3 years and was terrible. Worst years of my life. So, even if I applied TRP my inner core was still beta and this girl felt it!

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Even after being damaged and seeing TRP truths at first hand I still have some beta patterns. After knowing what it feels to be exposed to: not being fully honest, cheated, silent treatment, disrespected, created false expectations I find very hard to do the same to girls.

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So after a bad breakup with the girl (she blocked me!) i restarted dating.

I had 3 dates all with the same patterns: tinder, few texts, go grab drinks, kiss closed, make out. Now is where the blue pattern appear: i don't want to hurt the girl feelings I just want to fuck her, maybe fuck buddies but no more than that.

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How do I kill the beta inside? How can I plate a girl when being plate felt so horrible to me?