Almost score (relatively to my general result). Now it's pretty much lost.

I met her at a dumb activities. We passed 3 full day working together on the project, she was totally into me the first day and i kinda freak out about it. We were having really good eye contact [many seconds with full smile and when talking] it was totally awesome. I felt totally connected with her the first day. Generally, i can't keep up with long eye contact or can't figure out what to say. It was totally easy with her until i get to go home the first day. i was totally happy with myself for having had eye contact and full confident and attracting behavior. time passed as i was alone home and i started to deal with the how and why of thing so i could act nice tomorrow, anticipating to see her the next day. I almost broke me as it built a lot of pressure on me. by then i was very interested about her. The next day arrived soon enough and when i arrived to the 'work place' where we were doing our project she wasn't there. I was then dealing with insecurities about how to say hello (just f-ing say it lol) and if I would look to needy being there before her and if i was looking good and so on. Then she arrived and it was a little awkward but i said to myself f--k it, im here to work on that project, not see her. It make the approach easy as i said hello, rdy to work? or something similar. But this tough witch make it easy on me to move on stayed in my head. It had become so easy to talk to her because i didn't care about 'me and her together'. that day she gave me still lot's of IOI (like hell too) but i wasn't not listening as much for them. Turn out it was ok to her too. She play it cool, and so did I, still staring in one another eye and knowing each other more and more. the third day was the same but she didn't look like she was felling great. She was sleepy as hell in fact.

A week pass without seeing each other. Then a house party was thrown. We met there and pass all the party time together. She was following me more than i was. i felt awesome, this time I was extremely confident, girls were all following me. she still gave me lot's of IOI and we end up talking to one another very close, like almost nose on nose. By then i should have kissed her or say something to dare her to kiss me. But i didn't as i was a little overwhelm with all that new stuff i was living. Did I said I have never had a full girlfriend or even full kissed a girl. I'm around 20 if you need to know ad live in france. Turn's out i left the party when i had to (extremely happy about my new social skills and confidence. At that time i was working on my social abilities (outside dating realm) so I was already planing to throw a party. I Thrown it and when i was there i wasn't feeling so great. She arrived and we passed some time together but this time she wasn't 'with me' anymore. she wasn't facing me when speaking or didn't look interested anymore. passed the night , i had lot's of fun and i got to get some small IOI (kinda last chance IOI i supposed). I did nothing. Now i'm like fuck it, it was great and good learning!. Mid terms are kicking in so i have no more time to work it out. maybe i will try to refresh this if it look possible when i have some time.

problem to solve: being able to go for the kiss or for explicitly flirt (dunno how and i feel totally weird when i even think about going for it) help? this is too weird, i feel last second confidence drop and can't do it.

don't play it cool and uninterested (pass time not interacting to look occupy or to look cool and mysterious, this is shit play and if a girl is interested then she want you now. go for it now. call her back soon if you had IOI or don't call at all ever.

i find it difficult not to get to a mind state resumed by ( i don't want to mess up, first girl, she is awesome, i am terribly attracted i should be careful not to mess this up.....). getting out is HUGE

to get out of this mind state, don't persuade you that you are not interested, i need to find another way to get over this and not feel anxiety (but only stress) and be available to date.

my solution. go do it now ... but how?

what i learned: found out i have more girl friend, i can make longer eye contact with them, i more of a star than a nobody, it feel great. i can tell my mind now without anxiety. i can ask for advise!! i deal with everyone with more confidence the before this. have find way to make people around me comfortable (still working on this one) found interest in what other have to say.

what's the next goal? get to know how to keep up a good conversation with legitimate interesting small question or boring question witch could lead to great conversation. give me some more if you have idea!!!

thx to have read through all of this, give me advise if you think of any.

Tl;dr met a girl, got a LOT of IOI, didn't respond to them, she got bored and i learn lot of stuff. need some advice on what to work on now to improve.