I took a little break from going out on my days off because I wanted to save a bit of money. I had a couple nights where I was out playing somewhere and hit on some HB's but I didn't really deem them FR ready. Couple of number closes but not anything I'm aiming for. During the time from my last FR and this one I changed my wardrobe to look more professional and fashionable. I am most confident in that kind of attire. It mostly consists of items that fit me well like jackets, dress shirts, fashionable jeans and nice pairs of dress shoes. However, I feel that I'm a little out of practice after this break.

My state was alright. Not the best I've been before but decent. I just came from a long shift at work, took a nap and decided to head out solo. I decided to go to my regular bars last night. It was late on a Saturday night and I knew that they would be packed and hard to get into. On the way to the bars I chatted up two HB's on the subway to get into a more talkative state. I remarked on the shoes of one of the HB's telling them I liked them and that they reminded me of Christmas. We had a decent conversation and they said they were heading to a club in midtown. I tried to build more comfort but my stop came up and I said to them that it was nice meeting them and left. That interaction got me into a good mood for the time being.

It was in the line of the first bar where I met a group of people from out of town visiting. They where very talkative and friendly. There were three guys and two HB's both in a relationship with two of the said guys. They were standing in line and decided not to go in because it was long and decided to go to another bar. They asked me if I wanted to tag along and I said sure. They were interesting people and I'm glad I met them. It was at the second bar where I didn't open to anyone. There was live music playing consisting of horns and when that happens I get distracted. Being a musician it's easy to dance to pop because it's simple music but anything else I get in a zone. It's hard to explain but it's like being immersed in warm water. It was after the set was done that I decided to leave the group and head back to my first destination.

It was in the line again where I chatted some people up. I finally get inside and downstairs it wasn't packed but upstairs was. Upstairs I get a beer from the bar and headed straight to the dance floor. It was very crowded. So crowded in fact I really couldn't dance at all. I tried to dance with about five HB's by grabbing their hands but about three of them didn't want to. I did find out however that the item I use for peacocking works well because I probably got about three openers from girls asking about it. It was about 30 minutes in where I notice these two chodes dancing with these two HB's. Im really minding my own business and I could tell that the girls really weren't that into them but just entertaining them. One of the HB's dancing with with the one chode asks me about my peacocking item. I then tell her to guess. After a couple failed attempts I tell her. She's interested and I could tell that the chodes weren't having any of this. They try and block me out using their bodies but it's so crowded that it's really a wasted effort. After the girls leave one of the guys grabs my shoulders in like an aggressive dominant way squeezing them way too hard. I snap and tell the guy in an assertive tone to not fucking touch me. The guy doesn't listen and tries to do it again. I back up and I feel that the guy wants to fight. I mimic his body language and he backs away. I wasn't having any of his attitude so I grabbed my coat and got the hell out because I knew if I stayed there would be a confrontation. The type of mood I was in that night was very short. If he would've tried that shit again on me and actually hit me I would've snapped and fought him.

To get out of that negative vibe I decided to go to two other bars I frequent where I feel the most comfortable. They both have jam sessions. The first bar I played a little and totally lifted me out of that vibe. The crowd was giving me really positive energy. At the second bar I'm really relaxed and enjoy the music.

No closes tonight. Like I said in the beginning I feel I'm out of practice. Im going to head out again on Tuesday.