I'll lay out the FR first, since that's what is really most important.

BACKGROUND -

A month ago me and a bunch of guys in my fraternity were planning on going to a big party in another city. We pregamed at one of their houses. This HB8 and her HB5 friend were sitting down next to each other, very timid looking and squished next to each other. Obviously best friends that were introverted and very self conscious. Didn't approach because it was not a very ideal setting and I knew I'd see her later in the night.

We head to the party, halfway through the night I see them both, a friend wings for me and dances with the HB5 and I danced with the HB8.

While dancing and between songs, I DHV'd by simply saying "What's up?!" to a lot of my friends as they passed by, and even strangers would come by and compliment me. I used it all to my advantage and started kinoing HEAVY. I grabbed her by her waist, put my head over her shoulders as we grinded, and then finally took a hand and pulled her hair aside and made out with her 3 different times. I was the one leading the entire interaction.

After we stopped dancing, a friend came up and told me he saw us dancing and that she was his date to one of our fraternity's dances (she was well out of his league in many ways though and I think he knew this...) and told me to go for it.

We got back late (at around 5 in the morning) and I texted her telling her I would have kissed her, but I felt like it would have been awkward to do in front of my friend. And I also told her I'd invite her over but I was way too tired. This made my intentions pretty damn clear.

Anyway, a week later we go to our dance. She's there, I said hi, didn't do anything with her. Later that night though when I couldn't fuck my date, I ended up calling her over. We talked for about an hour and a half on my bed about a lot of shit, then I got bored and said "why am I still talking to you?" and went for the kiss and then did the sex stuffs.

Afterward, she came over quite a few more times and we agreed to a FWB arrangement. I taught her A LOT about sex. She had an extremely high libido and some mild death grip from excessive masturbation (grinding on shit). We fucked almost 4-5+ times a week. It was awesome...

A month later (today), we had to move back home for summer. She lives an hour away and I'm not sure if it's necessarily worth it to drive out there.

Last night she came over. I admitted to her that I kinda started to like her and that it sucks because I'll miss her. She was giddy as can be, but not in the way you'd think. It was almost like a game to her it seemed. In the beginning we both claimed it takes a lot for us to get attached, and when I finally told her that I had some feelings for her it seemed like she was happy because she had won.

It didn't hurt that she didn't tell me she liked me as well. It didn't hurt that I felt like she might not.

What's killing me right now is that I had told her I wouldn't text her so that I would get over her faster. She challenged me, saying that I would eventually text her and that she didn't believe me. She also told me it would make me miss her more.

HOLY FUCK was she right. I haven't texted her since, and it's fucking killing me. I want to talk to her so badly. FUCK my emotions.

My problem is I don't like playing her games. If she had told me she had feelings for me as well, I would probably be texting her and be content right now. But even if she did like me she more than likely wouldn't tell me.

But she never told me and I never asked her, as though to show her I don't care. But I do care, and a little too much. It's killing me not knowing how she felt. So now I'm here, very happy and very grateful for all of it. But sad as fuck because of these stupid fucking emotions.

She also never texts first. She never asked to come over. Everything is on me.

So do I text her or stick to not texting her and letting my feelings for her die out? This wouldn't be so hard if she wasn't the first girl I've hooked up with that actually fit a lot of my standards I hold for a relationship. Obviously anything serious can't work until we are back in school anyway, but I'm not sure letting it die like this is the best option.