Hello seddit,
I want to tell you a short story about my night, not only did I accomplish nothing, but it made my AA even worse and my will to go out worse.
I've been lurking around and reading FR's and now I decided to go out and start learning, change my life. I went out with some friends, one of them is really social. That guy turns girls and guys around him into friends in a heartbeat and for him everything feels easy. He knows about my huge AA and decides to go and gather 3 or 4 girls around to ,,sell" me. I really didn't like any of them, not at all. But he kept pushing and the others started commenting and making jokes about how I'm too scared to talk to them. It was horrible and really made things worse. I know them very well and some of them were really drunk, they didn't intend to harm me, but their constant pressing and the fact that I had no attraction to those girls whatsoever....it's gotten worse.
I wanted to share this with seddit, we all see FR's that range from semi-successful nights to pick-up artists best achievements. I envy those people and that moment where I don't waste time thinking and just do seems further away.