Foreward: Tone of voice doesn't translate well over text, so I'll just start this off by saying it isn't a 'poor me' sob story. It is merely reality as I see and accept it. Onwards.

Women don't find me attractive. There's nothing particularly wrong with me, no gross deformities, nothing physically wrong, but nothing truly remarkable either. I'm not fat, just not skinny enough. Not ugly ugly, just not quite handsome enough. Not short, just not quite tall enough. I can talk to them, but 'game' doesn't seem to work for me. I didn't lose the genetic lottery, but didn't win it either. Basically, if given options, I'm no woman's first choice. It's what I like to call 'close, but not quite.'

I've never caught a woman checking me out, none have ever gone to their friends and gone 'oooh, he's cute' and I've never been approached/picked up by one. Through blind luck or poor judgement, I've dated and managed to have a few girlfriends, but most were as lonely/desperate as I was, so no guesses how great those relationships were.

The outcome is the same whether I approach or not, whether I'm an asshole or whether I'm polite, or whether I spit game or shut up. Rejection. This is my reality, and after struggling for years, I've finally accepted it.

Yes it's lonely, but it brings with it a sort of true freedom most men don't experience. You see, I know what the outcome is going to be, even before I step into the ring. I have years of evidence and hundreds of experiences informing that. But that knowledge gives me power.

You see, I have true outcome independence: nothing I say or do will change the end result, so I'm free to do or say anything I want. Call her a cunty whore? No difference. Call her beautiful? No difference. Tell her bitch go buy me a drink? No difference. Treat her to drinks and dinner? No difference. Knowing this, now when I take up a hobby, or start a new activity, or do something I want to do, I'm 100% secure in the knowledge I'm doing it only for myself, because it doesn't make a difference. I play instruments, sports, and have hobbies. Not a single one has ever helped me get approached by women, helped me with an approach, or gotten me laid.

This, gentlemen, is what outcome independence truly is. And I am free.