I have this friend who I'm very much interested in. She's wonderful. Met her about 5 months ago. We hang out a lot. Talk almost everyday. A couple months ago, I told her to come sing karaoke with my other friends. She gladly came. We got drunk. She came home with me. We had sex. We spoke as though nothing had happened after. I wasn't as into her then as I am now. I didn't think too much of it. Then I guess I unconsciously tried to romanticize our hanging out and she said she wanted to only be friends. I was cool with that. The next weekend a few people went to her cabin. Got drunk again. Had sex until we were sober, then had more sex. We talked about what we wanted from it, and she came to the same conclusion. That she just wanted to focus on herself at the moment. I told her I was definitely attracted to her and that I do care about her, but I respect what she wants and so we remained friends. Every weekend since then she has been sleeping in my bed with me, cuddling, kissing, and holding each other. She has said no if I tried to make another move, and I respected that. Last weekend the same thing happened, again we were drunk. In the morning, sober, we held each other so passionately that sex was the end result. She called me the next day to reassure me that although it was fun, she didn't want this to keep happening. Yesterday, I DJed a party that she was bartending at. We went together and I told her I'd drive her home after. A different girl was really into me, and I was getting into her. This other girl wanted to come home with me. When my friend found out this girl was coming with us, she was really upset, and scolded me to drive her home now. So I packed up, got paid, and was driving her home along with this other girl in my car. On the way, my friend noticed that I was in fact driving her home and got even more upset that I was not taking this other girl home first. I decided I was not going to wait for her to make up her mind, and took this other girl home with me. I had sex with this other girl.

Today, my friend apologized for being a baby. I apologized to her if I was a dick. She said that I wasn't and that I had good boundaries. I told her that a lot of times I don't want these boundaries with her, and that I care about her a lot. But she did say she wanted to be friends, and I will absolutely respect that because I don't want to lose her in my life. Then she asked if I went home with that girl. I know I should have been honest, but I lied and said I did not.

I don't know where we stand, but we had a picnic today, and I get so enamored by her every time I'm with her.

Where do you think I stand? What should I do?