I'm in what I feel is a strange situation and I've been struggling a lot lately with how I feel towards my current LTR and myself.

It's been about four months with this girl and things are going steady, more so than anything else in the last three years. She's more stable than anyone I've ever dated, just great overall really. Easily the most attractive girl I've ever dated, has similar hobbies, really smart, hard working, invests equally if not more into the relationship than I do. I'm 21 btw. She's 19. We're both in college.

However, it's just been a huge mindfuck being with her. I've never dated anyone as attractive as this girl. My time doing PUA and dating girls have undoubtedly changed me into the guy that's capable of dating her now, but I feel like I'm in over my head sometimes. I feel like most of the time I'm a stud, but sometimes damn do I feel like an AFC.

What freaks me out is the girl is just a huge walking red flag, and it gets to me from time to time. To start with she's had to deal with a chaotic upbringing with homeless stints and a lot of shit that put her in strange situations. I've been looking at some red pill blogs and what not which I feel may be skewing my perception at the moment (I don't take it all seriously but there are some concepts I agree with so I stick around and try to filter the bullshit) but I'm getting shocked on almost a weekly/biweekly basis about her past. I try to keep cool but I know a part of my response afterwards comes off as playful judging which I don't like.

A lot of it just comes from my insecurity. Prior to me she was fuck buddy's with Division 1 football player from our school. Got over it. She's 19 with 17 sexual partners (I'm at 8). Mostly got over it. Everywhere we go people catcall her and everyone wants to fuck her. She's dated a lot of questionable people who've cheated on her. I don't know why it bugs me that she would choose these kind of partners. Her last serious ex threatened to kill me (lives across the country so no real danger). All of her closest friends are extremely promiscuous and it makes me wary of her hanging out with them. List goes on.

Honestly I don't know where I'm going with this, I guess I just needed to get this off my chest. With the red pill stuff I've been reading lately I'm freaking out cause my girl seems to confirm a lot of it and I'm feeling sexually insecure. It's not even like I haven't had a lot of sex and I feel inferior, I guess I'm just shocked with some of the choices she's made. Despite all this, my girl IS amazing and I feel like I'm headed down a path that'll mess up something good. I'm just so hesitant to ever consider someone an exception to any rule, and I recognize on paper this one should be an obvious GTFO situation. Yet she currently behaves better than any girl I've dated with more typical pasts.

How the fuck do I get over this? It's killing me and I know it's hurting the relationship.

TLDR: Girlfriend is great. Red flags not so much. Feeling insecure about her sexual past. How do I deal.