Here's my story.

I've been told I sound like Barry White and in the back of my mind, I'm always like "is that a good thing?" I've been told I'm a monotone. That I'm robotic. That I look and sound frozen when I talk. That I have no expression. No emotion. You name it, it's probably been said.

Me and 2 of my cousins got into this type of convo a few days ago. One male, the other female. The female one brought the "no emotion" part up and the male one said he could only imagine what it'd be like me talking to girls.

I said "I have no chance" and I tried putting a smile on my face as I was saying but idk, it wasn't easy.

I can imagine they get bored as hell. I've never been on a date. When I tried, the girls rejected me and I don't shake that shit off easy. I don't try now because I'm scared. I'm scared of getting rejected. I'm scared that her bf will happen to be RIGHT THERE and beat the shit out of me. I'm scared of the way I might get rejected.

I'm a short (5'7"), scrawny dude. Deep down, I'm a boring motherfucker and I would like to be interesting to people. I wanna have friends and go out more. I want people to understand that I don't like being this way. I get condescended to a lot and I don't like it but I never do shit because I don't wanna get in trouble.

And it's getting a little too late to worry about that.