sorry for bad english.

I'll tell you a story about me growing up and my relationships with girls.

I was always one of the popular guys in elementery school. I was good at football and other sports, had a long blonde hair, hanging out with "the cool kids" and I was straight A student, I was also named for very talented. Because of that girls always appritiated my company. I had a few "girlfriends", they were always flirting with me, giving me presents for Valentine's day etc. But I was never as interested in girls as they were in me. If I had to choose between spending time with girl or football, I always chose football, but girls liked me anyway.

When I went to highschool I was having similar relationships with girls. In first month of highschool 4-5 girls wrote on my Facebook wall, looking for excuses to talk. I was still not very interested in them. I mean I always appritiated their company on school trips and in school, but after school I just wasn't as interested. This went on through whole first year in highschool. But in second year I started playing League of Legends and when I look back now, I slowly became less popular, girls lost interest in me. And this was just getting worse and worse over the next year. I mostly played video games all day. So during summer from 3 to 4 year I realized I didn't have much life going on. I talked to this one girl, who I guess was interested in me, but after reading models I realized I was just being very, very needy and that's why she lost interest in me (I was talking to this girl for almost a year, without any progress). During summer when I went to collage I also realized that I don't really have good friends, I mean I was never alone in school, but we were never like best friends. So when I went to collage, I wanted to be cool again, that girls would be interested in me. But this did not work out. After few years of mostly playing games with friends(some of them met online, some were real life friends, but we never hung out together alot), I realized that being good with girls is not as easy. I always made friends, but I never had real connection with them, like I did in elementery or highschool.

So now, I'm second year in college, I should mention that I'm studying Mechanical Engineering, so I don't have a lot of girls in my classes. I finally made some good friends, that I like to hang out with and having a lot of fun.

So last week a friend was having a birthday party, we were all guys and there was one girl (I should mention that this was not like party, but more drinking before going out clubbing). I met this girl few weeks prior. I went to this party that was at her apartment, as friend of a friend. We talked a bit, nothing special. Last week, the day before birthday party I matched up with her on Tinder. I wasn't sure it was here, but we realized that we already know each other. She said something like, yeah we'll see each other tommorow at friends birthday party (I still don't know how she knew I was going). So we met there, she was there before the party started, because she was friend's neighbour. At the party we talked for a while, but it's kinda hard to talk with the only girl in the room. We later went out and danced in club together for a while, but mostly in group. Next day I ask her if we should go to a coffe, she said she doesn't have time right now. So I realized this was just nice way of turning me down. I also realized that my game sucks, girl who was interested in me, lost interest.

I also realized that as soon as girl shows interest in me, I lose interest in her. Anyways, I just want you guys to give me some tips or thoughts on what should I be working on, to be more succesful with women.

I'm sorry if I'm not clear with this post, just felt like sharing.