I hope this post doesn’t get flagged. I talk about some drugs, and I put a small part of my heart into this. Hope you enjoy. Love you guys.

Hello fellow Sedditers, I have come here to tell you to live a happy life. Yesterday I “tripped on molly” but I think I was given a bad batch since it didn’t really have any effect on me. Either way, yesterday was supposed to be my epic night. Which it was, in some weird way, but it was not what I was expecting, nor what I WANTED. I head out of my house to this awesome party. I bought molly, I was home alone and I organized the house so it would be perfect. But I was missing something. I was missing ME. I had smoked in during the afternoon, and to be honest, I wasn’t feeling ME, the ME I have been working on since December. Which I had made extreme changes to my personality. For once I was feeling happy, not for what I had, not for what I ate, not for how things went, but for what I said, for what I thought, for what I did. For first time in my life, I felt I was doing something good for myself, for the first time in my life I felt I had purpose.

Yesterday was a very sad night, but eye opening experience. Yesterday I went out with the goal to get laid and I was putting ME on MOLLY. Instead leaving ME, being ME. What happened? I have had molly before, it was the best and single moment that changed my view on life. Confidence, high energy, being present in the moment and just being happy were just a couple of things I learned from molly since my last talk with her. Ever since I have been implementing all this energy I had, to my real life. And I have. I was working so hard and well on it, a group of girls approached me and told me I haven’t been the same since December. Which I saw this as the single biggest compliment I have ever been given. I have been working on my “game” for a year or so, but it was only December that I really starting to truly work on myself, and these girls are telling me that they can see I have becomed a better person. This is FUCKING amazing, not only am I feeling better, but people can see the better in me.

So back to yesterday’s party, I like going to these rave type parties because everyone is so happy and nice. It’s amazing how these people are all just happy (sure they are all on drugs) but they are happy, you can just go to any group of people and talk and they will all accept you. But what happened yesterday has been destroying a small part of me. Life is what you make of it, we have all heard this, and we all know this, especially in this sub reddit.

I just want to re-emphasize on just be happy. Have goals, have objectives. But the first thing to strive for is happiness. You will need a lot of energy to get all the things you want to do, and all this energy comes from the inside. Not the ambient, not the people, not the music, not the drugs, not the women, but from inside you. Everything out side YOU is external, and it should be seen like this.

To end this pointless rant, be happy, just please be happy and life will be yours. I have seen what I can be and I will keep striving for that. And you should do the same.