This post is quite long, I've included a TL;DR at the bottom :)

Some background info: I've been lurking in this sub for about a year and a half now, and I cannot begin to explain the changes that I've gone through and how they have affected not only the way I interact with women but all social interactions. During the past few months I've made great friends and I've had my fair share of women in my bed. Although I've never had any problems with women being attracted to me solely based on physicality, my AA and insecurities made it extremely difficult to form real connections with women.

I can proudly say that I've progressed a lot since then and have no problem talking to women and creating attraction, especially in a bar/club scene. I'm sure many of you could relate to going through a phase where you conquer as many women as possible to make up for a lack of sexual experiences during your youth, and that is exactly what I went through. Fast forward to the past few months, where I met this girl who I found very interesting and refreshing. We're both in school and it took awhile to really get together but I finally set up a date with her last week. I had never really gone on a "date" before this girl as I wouldn't include meetings that were explicitly sexual to be dates.

I figured that at this point in my life I could do without the superficial/lust-based one night stands and truly wanted something more meaningful, so one of the major reasons I'm attracted to this girl is because of her innocence and lack of experience with guys which is something we have in common.

Long story short I had a really good time on the date and I feel that she did as well. My problem is that I feel like the more I talk to her, the more I revert back to my old self and I can feel the neediness coming on. I've placed so much value on her, it's almost as if a switch turned on in my mind that has placed her on a pedestal and removed any interest in other girls. I almost feel over-invested over text. I know this is likely because I don't usually bond with women in this manner, it's something new for me that makes her seem special when really it could have been similar with many other women out there, I just don't know how to shake it off.

TL;DR * found seddit * went from a clinical "nice guy" to relatively confident * spent the last year hooking up with girls in bar and off tinder * haven't really been on date * met girl, texted for a few months, set up a date and it went well * feel like I'm placing her on a pedestal and reverting to my old needy self

Some questions I'm hoping some of you can give me insight on: * What am I doing wrong here, and am I just not ready for a relationship yet? * How can I take a step back and match her level of investment?