Hey seducers. Ill try to point everything clear and pleasant to read. If it is too long I apologize.

*About me: I live in UK for over 2 years. I am 26. I consider myself as good looking. I lift, eat quite healthy, got job which I dont like (It will change soon). My problem in the past was that I had ACNE and was generally shy with women as teenager, and thought that 'girls didnt like me' (excuse attitude, you know). Most of my life I was approached by women, and it wasnt to much of them. I just want to mention that I am not a womenizer, believe me I am not. I had some succes, but I wasnt satisfied. I felt like raft floating on the sea, without any control, waiting for my fate to come. Which I didnt like. I thought I need to change myself.

*My first thoughts on pickup: I created a mirage in my mind that pickup is 'lame'. That it is not normal approaching women on the steets, cafeeis etc. That this is creepy. But deep inside I realy wanted to do it. At least try it. I was impressed with men who could do it, but I was scared to do it myself. Of course I was scared of what? Rejection. Jelaousy and fear created this excuses, which they have apprehended me from starting doing this for about over a year since I moved to UK.

*Why I started pick up adventure: Over a year of watching porn, smoking weed and occasionaly going to the clubs without much succes I felt I need to make change. What was concerning me the most is that i couldnt relax near women, but not only women, males too. I felt awkward and anxious. I was smoking weed for about 6-7 years. As someone of you may know, weed makes you anxious and awkward If you dont do any activities besides smoking it everyday - which of course I did. Porn and masturbation do that too. I used to masturbate daily, which is not healthy.I didnt feel like a man, I felt like a 'being with penis'. I remember that I always felt tired and down. About 10 months ago i discovered nofap and stoped watching porn, I also stopped smoking weed 5 months ago.

*My experience with pickup: So basicly I started about 10 months ago. I stared with reading books. I read about two of them. Models by Mark Manson, and Rational Male by Rollo Tomassi. I realy liked them. But as I was reading them, I still didnt do my first step. Scared of rejection, I made and excuse that I need to 'educate' myself (I was still smoking weed by that time, so maybe thats why). So besides books I was creeping on reddit, youtube and stuff. I was still making excuses that my English is not that well, that maybe the girls dont like foreign guys (which they do of course because I made out with couple of English girls at the clubs), but your brain is stubborn, and will do anything to prevent you from being rejected. I wanted to approach a girl, on the daylight, sober - not after couple of drinks building balls to do it. I wanted to do it in direct masculine way. That was my dream! So after 4 months of excuses I made first step. I started asking women about way, about time - of course, to not to be rejected. After month, I stared adding compliments to it. I also asked out couple of women for a date through facebook, and got rejected - but it wasnt what I wanted. I wanted direct rejection. In two months I felt i need to go further, and make myself clear, and show my intentions.

*First approach in my life (sober, daylight, not after 3 drinks): I approached girl at the gym. Told her that she is pretty, and I wish to paint her.(because I do paintings too) Man... I was scared as a mouse. Nervous as fuck. But I did it. And got rejected... She told me, that she has husband. I felt lame at the beggining. But then I realized that I made huge step, that it doesnt hurt that much. Now I know she is married, and I dont have deal with thoughts in my head like 'is she single' 'does she like me'? Later on I directly approached about 4 - 5 women on the street being direct, without bullshit. One of the girls gave me her facebook, but she didnt respond to my message. So basicly, by all of them - rejected. I also hit on bartender being sober, she had a boyfriend. But I think she liked me, she was fine girl.

*Summary: I feel good guys. I am not mad at myself. It takes a lot of courage to approach woman being sober. You will not be good at the begging. You gonna get rejected shitloads of time. I will to. I learned that rejection isnt that bad. It is good actualy. It made me more confident. What I learned is you need to work on your vibe, do more field work. Dont read to much guys, go out and try your best, everytime you gonna get rejected, you gonna get more tough. Dont be mad at girls that they reject you. It is not that bad that someone might not find you attractive or whatever. I am positive about this. Approaching women gives me that sensation of excitement and adventure. Treat rejection as scars. The more scars you have, the more badass lion you will be. I hope it helped some guys who want to start their adventure, but they too scared at the moment. Remember guys, try to like the process, not the result. There is long way before me, but I am not overwhelmed. Ill try my best. You cant win all the time. Good luck guys. *PS (sorry for any mistakes, english is my second language)