And now she's my girlfriend :D

I lied to her too. I don’t usually lie. In fact, as a policy, I disclose any non-trivial lies either in real life or online to keep me accountable. At least so I can be consistent. She asked about my past relationships, when they happened. I said one last year, and one at the start of the year. I said one I met at a house inspection and one was a friend of a friend. I said I never had initial crushes for either of them but had crushes on my primary school classmate and 2nd year uni classmate and her alone. The truth is maybe just maybe I’ve had other crushes, and my crush for her has actually ended since she accepted me, and I met the house inspection girl...because she was my housemate/landlord, and the ‘last year’ one I actually went out with around the middle of this year, and I said both relationships were like 1-2 months, and 3 months for the hoiuse inspection one...which also kinda lie, just a bit of a guess, cause for neither I was officially bf/gf and for one, the housemate, she explicitly said ‘I’m not ready’ in regards to a relationship, and then broke up with me. I could construe the ‘last year’ relationship lie as ‘we met last year’, but I’m not sure that’s true (can’t remember exactly) - I’ll just construe it as we got to be friends last year which I think is true. Fuck. IN the heat of the moment I thought she’d be concerned that I started this relationship with her so soon after these two girls, when she takes a long time to get over people including her recent ex, which she says is the reason for her initial rejection of me.

Give, and it shall be given unto you, as the spiritual adage goes.

Initially she rejected me a few weeks back.Then I mentioned (didn’t even send) a love letter I wrote her. She told me this day that she came around cause she thought that suggested I didn’t have my ego in it - I told her even after getting rejected essentially. I’ve tried reframing her rejection as my just misunderstanding her response till now, but it has hit me that she actually isn’t falling for my reframe haha.

We made out lying down in the grass. She was on top of me and I noticed she was rocking. It became more gyrating, and I noticed she was moaning. I had been hard for ages. Like, since our first date when we first held hands, and I had precumed lightyears ago. This was a real suprise. It was the first sexual advance, and she was making it. She seemed to be more getting off on my thigh than my hard cock since it was slighty askew from all the shuffling and rolling in the grass. I felt a bit uncomfy from my phone in my pocket. I remember asking her if the phone made her uncomfy later and she said she didn’t notice. I hope she didn’t think that I wasn’t hard and it was just my phone after that haha. I should have mentioned to her that it was the other hard thing in my pants.

Anyway after she moaned I felt permitted to finger her. She was so wet, so I shifted around and ate her out (first time doing that!) It was actually a bit tongue tiring and rather boring, plus I don’t think I got my face stuck in enough, just kinda tongued around from a distance lapping it up - trying to remember the sworl technique I had seen in a video on a porn site sometime.

Suprisingly she said she prefers me being on top, but I can’t see how she can feel the same gyrating stimulation then.

I haven’t been long enough into the incubation period of a rather poor sexual risky choice to go to the sexual health check clinic yet, from I think it was last week to feel comfortable with exposing her to my own genitals yet. Kinda glad she hasn’t made a move for them so I don’t have to explain or seem too resistant/prude. Guess this saves me renting out a room that night. But fuckit maybe I should risk it.

I wonder if she'll be weirded out if I get some tissues and stuff my undies to deal with the precum. From memory I think she had a tissue paper type thing at her crotch to soak up her schlick maybe. But I don't want her to think I'm padding my crotch for size!