Hey guys, tonight I went out with a friend I didnt see in a long time,we just talked for 3-4 hours and around midnight I went home.

I never go out normally, I just stay home and do things (I dont have a gf), but I still lurk this subreddit, because I find it interesting and because models was one of the most important books I've ever read, reallt made me a better man.

Tonight I saw a lot of beatiful girls, and I wanted to fuck them soooo hard. I didn't approach anyone tho, but I think my problem is quite different than that of your average 18 years old.

I feel confident in myself, and I know of a good number of great girls that wanted me as their bf or tried to get with me, Even tho my looks are below average and I'm only 5'5'' , and all of my social life practically is going to school. But the fact is, tonight I saw all these girls, walking mindlessly from place to place, in this little city of mine with nothing interesting to do, with this bored expression on their faces.

Are they going out only because they're scared of being alone? do they just want to fuck? I don't think so, I live in quite a regressive little city in south italy, girls barely make eye contact, pretty unlikely they go out to find someone to fuck, it's not that easy here. I just feel I have nothing in common with these people. I think I could easily "seduce" a girl I was genuinely interested with, but I feel I really don't care about these girls, I just really wish I could fuck them, but I dread the idea of game or routines, I just like to be myself.

What I wish to know is, how do I feel genuinely interested in those people with wich I don't seem to have nothing particular in common? or how do I fuck them while being myself and completely honest about my intentions? Or how do I talk with them of something that will interest me and hopefully them as well? Am I apathetic towards humanity? geez I hope not.

Thanks for listening.