About 4 years ago I started a relationship with a girl I met through a mutual friend. long story short I turned into an emotionally abusive and sometimes even sexually abusive relationship. By the time I had realized that this wasn't a normal relationship the damage had been done. I finally got out of it after many failed attempts. I cut all ties with her and had to file a restraining order on her. I've dated one other girl since then who is my best friend right now, shes helped me get through this, but the reason we broke up was that she said I was too emotionally dependent. I just don't know where to go from here. I get so much anxiety when I approach girls. I miss just talking to women with out freaking out. I'm tired of feeling sorry for my self, but its so damn hard to just get out there again. It just feels like I'm not dating material, I know it comes down to my self esteem which is fucked right now. I know not an ugly guy. I've been called hot, handsome, and cute by most girls that I've met. I just need advice on where to start.