(TL;DR at the end)
So, over the past 6 years I've been going out maybe once a month, and never to a club or a party, always to somebody's house where it's safe and I don't have to try. I'm now 26 years old and basically virgin (I banged 2 hookers, so technically I'm not, but I still very much feel like a virgin, because I know I can't get myself into a position where I can have sex).
But last Saturday I went to get some sushi with some friends and then we went to someone's house, and later to an actual party, I was already buzzed so I actually wanted to go, I went home, took a bath, put on a shirt, my new cologne, and off I went.
There was this 21 yo girl, I'd say she's a 6? But a cute face, and short like I like them, so after getting fucked up drunk I started getting ballsy, I've been reading TRP for a while now and wanted to try it, I did what I once thought I would never be able to do, hell right now, sober, I still can't believe it worked, but as soon as we were left alone, I sat down on a couch next to her (she was next to her mom, lol), I put my arm around her, leaned in to her ear and said: "I like you, give me a kiss", she grinned nervously and said "My mom doesn't let me" which sounded weird to me, but she leaned closer so I said as my last attempt: "So you're next to her drinking beer, but you can't kiss, alright" and SHE kissed me. It was the FIRST time a girl kissed me (Pathetic, this is why I'm using a burner account).
Now, these weren't really kisses, they were pecks, but I'll take them, we "kissed" a couple more times then she said we should go get new drinks, we did, she kissed me again out of nowhere, but before going back she started talking to some people she knew, I saw myself standing there with my drink by myself, waiting for her, and not 3 seconds passed when I decided I maybe shouldn't do that, so I left her and went to sit on the couch next to my friends, I'm not gonna lie I was sure she would come looking for me but it never happened, 5 minutes later (I think? I was so drunk) I decided I'd go home, it was like 5 AM, so I said goodbye to my friends and I left.

I've been feeling extreme anxiety like when I was in high school, which is annoying, thankfully now that I'm an adult I can decide how to act on these feelings, but I'm still really sad that I'm going to be 30 in a few years and I'm just starting to do this.
Everything changed now, I've been eating healthy and going out for a run every morning, I decided I'm going to go out at least once every week and I'm going to put myself out there even if it means getting rejected, I'm going to change the man that I am, going to get better SMV, and try and talk to girls as often as I can in the mean time.

The party was Saturday night, I added her on facebook Monday Morning, I still haven't talked to her though.

[TL;DR]

  • Been a kiss-less virgin for my 26 years of life *
  • Finally approached a girl in an alpha way and it fucking worked (I feel like you all saved my life).
  • Said "I like you. kiss me" She did.
  • Added her on facebook 2 days later.
  • Have oneitis and want to date her, marry her, have children and a dog.

I think I have a strong case of oneitis since I see myself dating her and shit, I rationalize it saying I won't get many 21 year old girls the older I get (I'm almost 27) and I need to jump on it.

I was thinking of doing small talk over facebook / texts and then on the weekend ask her out to "hang out" at a bar or something.
What's your advice TRP? Is a LTR the first step into the world or should I aim for just random dates?