The following contains nothing but brutal humility and honesty, which is an absolute necessity if you ever want to improve.

So after a miserable day of failed loser game attempts, I was walking down the street in party college town a few nights ago. Random drunk girl yells to me and gets me in with her herd, which is probably about the only way I would have ended up at a party uninvited since im such a fucking wuss. We wander around a bit and end up at their place. We bullshit, time passes, and after awhile the guy sitting next to me whispers to me that the same girl who invited me in wants a smooch (note: she has a boyfrien or something, who is standing right there).. I get up, go up to her, and make what I think was my mistake: instead of just doing it, I tell her, like an employee reporting to his manager, that I was informed she wants a kiss. What does this say? It communicates that I am a more passive person who prefers to seek approval of his behavior first before doing it. In other words, lack of congruency between how I might look and my behavior. For this type of girl, in this type of venue, there is nothing that dries up pussy faster. She yells at the guy who said that to me, which is either her honest embarassment or just an insecure girl trying to save face. A dude chuckles to himself and mutters that I am a lil' boy who doesn't know what's going on yet. Granted I do look young, I look 19 instead of 24, but at this point it is becoming my behavior that is the obstacle.

Unless the guy who whispered that shit to me was fucking with me..but she was the one who asked me in so I think she thought I was cute, even if it was beer goggles.

Open to any thoughts