I'm irritated.

Was late to my date AGAIN, blamed it on traffic, but it was my fault.

I hadn't shaved because, again, I was an idiot who couldn't manage time.

I tried to fuck her but she didn't want to, she wants to have a relationship. And I don't feel very attracted to her.

I deleted my account on the dating site because getting rejected all the time on there makes me mad.

This is the first day since July I had any caffeine, and the first day I didn't know exactly how many calories I ate. Maybe not a big deal I don't know but still feel like I failed because I haven't reached my bulking goal yet and my idea was to not drink any caffeine until I did and to only eat things I know how many calories it has. My goal was also to not go on dating sites or even talk to women until I reached the goal, which I failed, even though it's less important than reaching the bulking goal itself.

What do?