Idk if it’s because I’ve gotten so hopeless or if it’s because I’m being affected by the MGTOWs, but I’ve realised as of late that I have no interest in girls, none of the girls in my lectures appeal to me, last weekend at the club I picked up a girl and left her as soon as it was time to go, after having thought about it I only spoke and danced with her out of peer pressure as didn’t really care about her I just needed to impress my friends. I think at the moment I’m more focused on solidifying my friendships because they are all just too fragile and no ones close to me...

I just don’t know how to feel anymore.